I believe in an honest self-reflection
The past year was all about discovering myself over again. I have been in long relationships since my fifteenth. I was used to live with a partner and I always enjoyed it. I loved the partners I’ve been with, I gave them my all. And they gave me so much back. But now I’m standing by myself and I have to rely on no one but myself. It can be scary sometimes but it also gives me a lot of insights, and happiness. I think the happiness comes from my high level of energy. Normally, when you’re with a person, you’re giving energy and receive it back. Over and over again.
I’m listening to loud music in my house and define it by reading the music scores at the same time. I bake a few pies a week, there’s no one to eat them but I love making them. I have no sleeping rhythm at all, I go to bed when I’m tired, and wake up when I want. I devour books, preferably a new one every day. I have deep and open conversations with complete strangers. I suddenly have the time to drink tea with the neighbors (who live next to me for 10 years) for the first time. I invite people for parties at my place and dance on my rooftop. I’m learning German and I’m having boxing lessons from a female boxing pro. I seek for widening in my creativity; I am painting for hours and I spent nights writing blog posts. I make myself an expert in the subjects which got my interest, like astrology. I can’t stop reading about it!
In 2014, I didn’t fell in love with a person, but I fell in love with my personal journey. This year made me more graceful than ever. I’m one of the lucky ones, one of the 7billion people in this world who got the privilege to be born. I got the chance to live my life and discover all the miracles, emotions and challenges. I count my blessings every day and look into the new year with a lot of trust. I’m sure 2015 will be a complete new year for me with the grown amount of self-knowledge. In 2015 I dare to be fragile and to be strong, more than ever because I know I can rely on myself. This is what true growth feels like.
REFLECTIONS FROM YOUR MIRROR
FOR THE WOMEN OF THE WORLD
Between king and QUEEN
Who is Tasya van Ree? The mysterious girl in the big black hat has been fascinating art connoisseurs and fashion lovers alike since she burst onto the scene with her stunning black-and-white photographs of celebrities like Michelle Rodriguez and (one-time lover) Amber Heard. I asked the Hawaiian-born visual artist of Dutch-Japanese ancestry (41) about her art and soul. “Between both King and Queen is where I exist.”
Sara Mearns (31) is New York City Ballet’s boldest ballerina. A passionate, intense dancer, she started dancing at 3 and starred in Swan Lake when she was only 19. But instead of resting on her laurels, Sara has kept challenging herself with daring projects, from a collaboration with hip-hop dancers to a leading role in a Broadway show. I talked with the fierce Swan Queen about sacrifices, body confidence, and how to turn pain into gain. “I’m not the typical skinny, tall, long-neck kind of ballerina.”
The art of love!
Get your creative juices flowing
This Valentine’s, don’t wait around for that love-note or those fancy chocolates to feel loved and desired. Express yourself to fall in love with yourself, now!